November 2012

So it has been a while since I last wrote anything on here. This past summer has been a busy one...filled with drama, excitement, and worry. So I will break this post down into those three categories: Drama: Work has kept me busy and I have held steady to the fact that I work in a loony bin. Basically work has been a load of crap but things were looking up. I have been working on a promotion and all seemed well until my boss left. Since then I have been the team lead. This has put me in a strange position. I have been given the power but no one cares because I have no title. I hate titles but in this case I cannot be taken seriously without one it seems. Even if I had a title I would probably not be taken seriously but then that would be more their problem then mine. I simple have very little leverage. Not to mention the fact that I work with a huge ass hole who believes that he is right 100% of the time and will argue just for the sake of it. I am somewhat mad at myself because I had a hand in hiring him and I wish now that I had said no. But, shit happens and he is in the process of digging his own grave. He tok the job only to move away from another state...that should have been my first clue that he was not right for the job. My boss in NYC is very demanding but she is also incredibly fair and I love her for it. The woman escaped communist China during the Tiananmen Square debacle and has made a life for herself here. She even went to college in Texas! She frustrates me to no end but I view that frustration as a challenge. My brother is another source of endless drama. The man is crazy. A friend once summed it up perfectly...anti-social personality disorder. He recently left me an incredibly vile message on Facebook. I have formulated a response but I am not sure I am going to send it to him. I am heading home to Dallas in a few days and wanted to see him but that certainly isn't happening now. His loss. Excitement: I am very happy about heading home to Dallas in a few days. I have not been in a year. I would be lying if I said that I was not homesick but I do miss Texas, my family and friends. I would say making friends here in Chicago has been easy. I am sure it is easy but Ron and I have been lazy about this. Despite the drama at work I am curious to see where this goes. My review is coming up in a few weeks. Tiger boss loves me so I feel good that my review will be good but you never know. Worry: I am worried about all of the above. My stress level is through the roof but I am managing better that most. I see a light at the end of the tunnel and I have bosses that are very supportive and fair. Overall there I am worried about everything I am excited about. There is much more but I feel I have hit the major details. As far as the drama goes...it will always be there. I still feel I am very fortunate and that the decisions I have made have been the correct ones. It seems that my patience is phenomenal. I am thankful everyday of that. It also helps to come home after a long days work to the man I love.